It’s Monday

I’m in love with this tree outside my window
because he or she makes me love where I am right now

The sun has not yet risen

It’s rising

The branches at my 3rd eye
bend poetically together, upward to create the Vaishnava tilaka

The quantum effect between my brain cells reminds me
that I remember this pattern

of upward, of love, of energy, of a dance

and I do.

Birdsongs and Breathing space

oṃ bhūr bhuvaḥ svaḥ
bhargo devasya dhīmahi
dhiyo yo naḥ prachodayāt

Harry Paul Cuero from the Campo people whose performance of part of a Bird Song woke me up, inspired me, and the sound vibration stills sings within my body, mind, consciousness.

Gordon Hempton, founder of One Square Inch of Silence and Breathing Space, placed the song of the forests, the song of raindrops, the song of mist in my tired ears and it still drops into my heart space today.

Krista Tippett brings these conversations into my universe to complete the sentences and answer questions buzzing in my mind or heavy on my shoulders.

Anand Mehrotra gave me techniques to settle down my nervous system - so I can feel rightly.

With the help of these Great People, I can look at the injustices of man and not be overwhelmed into submission or ignorance or dismissiveness.

Blessings in May.

Deserving Power and Masturbation

Two topics on my mind this morning are : Masturbation and Deserving Power.

I don’t like these words so I did some research to find words I prefer, words which strike meaning for me : I chose Shakti (to replace deserving power) and Brahma (to replace masturbation). Here’s why…

Going into Sanskrit, I found Hastmaithun. Ha is a form of Siva. Ha is a cipher - like the arithmetical figure symbolizing o. Ha represents meditation, sky, heaven, paradise, dying, fear, knowledge, the moon, Visnu, war , battle, a horse, pride, a physician, a cause and a motive.

Let’s go on a journey with this, shall we?

Have you ever masturbated? I’m not advocating for or against masturbation - I’m simply asking if ever you have? If not, you will not understand what I’m talking about - you will also not understand if you have masturbated but only as an escape or addiction.

For those of us who have masturbated as an exploration, process or form, Ha will make sense. Ha Siva - the limitless, the one who is beyond beyond, the one who is bound not by inhibitions, morality or compulsion. Ha Siva - the master of the senses. It makes sense that the beginning of masturbation would be Siva.

And, cipher, the o - the root contained and also opening to the universe to give and to receive. Within the orgasm is the fear and knowledge like death, like birth. The unknown slips into and out of the known - simultaneously present, past and coming. It is the moon, liquid and shining. The cause and the effect. The healing physician and the physician’s discovery, application and duty. Ha, a meditation.

This is the new way to look at masturbation - in which and through which everything is contained and released… a universe of waves and the undefined. Limitlessness.

Another Sanskrit word expression for masturbation is : svayám-indriya-mocana.

Svayám - one’s own (reflexive). Indriya - agreeable to Indra, the King of Heaven, the God of storm, rains and river flow. Mocana - releasing, setting free, letting go. All of this - the rivers, the storm, the God of Heaven is contained in masturbation.

The journey of masturbation includes desire, arousal, climax (with or without orgasm, with or without ejaculation) and return - and this is just on the physical level. Then there is what goes on with the endocrine and the nervous systems. And there can be a psychological element as well as a spiritual element. And I believe there is also a metaphysical phase (or maybe a quantum mechanics aspect). This phase or aspect is not bound by the intellect (not even for this posting) - it has more to do with the possibility of the possible and/or the reality of alternate histories, alternate futures. And it is very personal and unique to each Conscious expression. I don’t think this technology was just dropped on us for no reason or just for sexual purposes or just for procreation alone.

So the word for masturbation needs an update - masturbation is Brahma, the self-born and Divine Creativity. Not to say that masturbation - with a pre-determined, pre-defined physical objective - is Brahma or anywhere near divine or creativity… but we’re talking about potential here. Potential. The possibilities. The limitlessness, the golden womb. Waking up and sleeping deeply.

The other concept I’ve heard lately is : deserving power.

I get that this concept was thought up by someone with the desire to connect with others and to share something. But what does it actually mean?

Personally, I have observed people using the phrase, tossing it around over chai, but when I tilt my head, these speakers seem to have lost control over their speech so these words seem to be just run from their mouths with a kind of urge to self-justify their so-called position in the universe. It’s unbecoming.

But this deserving power is actually essential to every individual - every single living entity - because it locates a reality - the reality of Shakti.

Shakti is not a definition of something or a synonym for something. It’s not a concept or a personification. What Shakti is cannot be contained in letters S-H-A-K-T-I and what deserving power is cannot be contained in words. Deserving power exists - whether you know the word for it or not!

The essence and meaning of Shakti cannot be found within the boundaries of linguistics - word formation and semantic change. Shakti is a reality, beyond the mind. Shakti, deserving power, is not limited by awareness. Shakti is the essence of Nature, the Source.

Discovery your own Power. Find your own meaning.


I am not a Sanskrit scholar. Nor am I a psychologist or doctor. I am an Intuitive scholar and the Poet Truth.

Gratitude, the VERB

No matter what the dictionary says, Gratitude is a VERB. A verb is a word to describe an action or a state of being. So Gratitude is either a state of being, an action, or nothing but a word. The actions and state of gratitude are powerful, it sets us into action to make reality of our theories and concepts. But when ideas (or hopes) remain just words - captured in words - our entire lives seem to become meaningless!

When gratitude manifests as actions then we create our meaningful reality! So…. Practice NOW. Stand up and raise your hands above your head. Let the fingertips meet. Lower your eyelids so that you can only slightly see the floor in front of your feet. Breathe deeply in. Breathe deeply out. Let your shoulders slip down your back, away from your earlobes. Say THANK YOU silently. Say it again. If others visit you in your mind, tell them thank you. Say : thank you, thank you, thank you.

Now, sit down.

Wonderful things are happening. If we try to categorize the wonder, however, we underestimate ourselves and our lives - our banal comparisons turn the whole world into everything trite.

What do you look forward to seeing today? Let your mind wonder. The good in the world is cultivated on a daily basis and the Greatest Good is sometimes never noticed. So, do ONE unnoticeable thing today. What might it be? Perhaps you won’t kill the spider or the ant. Perhaps you’ll let someone else go first in line. Perhaps you’ll not do any of those and you’ll come up with your own good will! Will you? Will you?

This is not about becoming a hippie or a gullible goofball who everyone at the corporate function or the yoga retreat just adores! Please! Be real. PLEASE. This is about changing the world - one self at a time!

Try this… For ONE week, try to be conscious as you go to sleep. Don’t exhaust yourself throughout the day so much that you can’t be conscious before you rest. Don’t drink alcohol after work - for one week! - just so you can feel presence before you rest! Gratitude here is acknowledging that you are about to close your eyes only because you fully expect them to open in the morning. But are you sure your eyes will open in the morning? Are you so sure you will live through the night? Based on what, is your trust? Showing gratitude in the act of your presence just before going to sleep is saying Thank you, Thank you, Thank you to your heart and to your lungs - and acknowledging how your body works independently, 24-7, to keep you alive.

But you don’t really care about seeing do you?

How often do you say Thanks Eyes! Thanks for seeing! And if you’re blind… then I don’t know how you’re reading this, but thank that thing helping you do it! and, while you’re at it, Mr. Blind man, thank the overdevelopment of your senses exchanged for your sense of sight.

Mornings. Do you stop even once in the morning after your feet hit the ground - do you slow down, do you pause at all?

How can you think that saying thank you four times to the barista is going to help you along in your day if you can’t fully put gratitude into action for yourself? Saying thank you is nice. But rushing out of the house without pausing is just pure violence. You’re not doing anyone any favors by doing that!

So just pause at the door long enough to become aware of which foot steps out the door first! Start there! Later, you’ll be able to see how that has everything to do with your blocked nasal passage. Then maybe then you’ll get to nourishment!

Gratitude (the action) for the body, mind and soul is the only way we can change things in our lives. Later we might get to volunteering at a soup kitchen! OR - how about this - to not letting any human on the planet starve to death!

For now, just start paying attention. That’s enough. Just pay attention to yourself. Become aware of your thoughts, anger, fears, how you walk, how you smell when you cry, how you look when you’re smiling… Donate your time to this!

Otherwise, nothing is gratitude! no matter how well you package it or try to spin it or explain it…